“I can find no serenity until I accept ___XYZ___ until I can accept ___XYZ___as being exactly the way it is supposed to be at this moment…”
“Until I could accept my alcoholism, I could not stay sober…
“Expectations are resentments under constructions….”
“Accept life, on life’s terms…”
“I need to concentrate…. on what needs to change in me..”
“I used to keep it in and that was never good…”
“If you are feeling guilt and shame… use it as motivation…”
“Drink or using is a RESULT of the relapse…”
Lapse vs Relapse- if you are on a diet and all week you are doing good, but then there is a cupcake, you eat that cupcake and get right back to the diet the next day, that’s a lapse….
I was hoping I could say I took a lapse… but I got into ugly habits again – buying more alcohol than was originally in the house…. So this is a relapse…
I can see and tell myself, again, I am a horrible drinker…. One is not enough…. I’m chasing a buzz that is not there. I am drinking to drown out feelings, that apparently cannot be drown.