Hearing someone on the internet reading an insult -- "Comments like these have weight and they affect us because this is how we talk to ourselves....These comments ride in on the names we call ourselves internally." "I have devoted my life to peace and kindness inside and outside, but know that without the internal self …
Selfcare Step 1 for 2021
I'm still focusing on clean home selfcare. I have made great progress in my "closet" area. I have removed broken stuff that got shoved the the back of the closet... a shameful amount of recycling (college stuff I haven't touched in years and that pile of shoe boxes that I have kept) ... took out …
March 2, 2021
Today, I am thankful I have a job. Today, (not all days) I am thankful that I work from home. Today, I am thankful for solo work... Somedays I am thankful for group work. Today, I am thankful for quiet. Today, I am thankful to advice from internet friends (Youtube). Today, I am thankful for …
Lessening the inventory
I was able to complete some of my goal from last week - 2 FULL 13 gallon garbage bags went out with another half way full. I went through the 4 drawers and my hanging clothes upstairs. What haven't I touched in a year (really everything that went was years). What has holes that I …
Remember this moment
I wish I could bottle moments to remember - happy, sad, inspired, angry, disappointed, hungover.... Wouldn't it be so useful to bring up those emotions prior to making a bad choice, prior to saying whoa is me..? Last night was the second time I really have hung out with my husband since the year started... …
Not Drinking is the Easy Part …. Having to Feel Your Feelings is Hard the Hard Part
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ls5P_DLeSRY I'm always game for a good piece of inspiration and this is just what I needed today! This inspired me to clean up my Instagram.... I first simply went to search for @noboozebabes ... and then I thought why am I following hundreds of people//things? I only keep Instagram for a couple people as …
Journaling & Goals: Week 6: Week of February 15th
Goals this week- Charge tablet (for the first time in such a long time) and find band workouts. Complete 2 work outs by the end of the week. I just bought this set from Amazon: Go through 2 closets and 4 drawers in closet room. Thoughts: Anything not used in a year needs to go. …
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Leftovers, of the food variety
My spouse will not eat leftovers. He makes fun of me when I bring them home from a restaurant; however, I 99% of the time eat them. I liked to bring a warm lunch to work - easy eat half of my dinner, eat the other half for lunch the next day! He will rarely …
Can you tell I’m hanging on for dear life?
Just keep writing, just keep writing. Keep learning and listening and considering recovery! Care vs Escape Are you caring for you body and soul or are you escaping? Drinking is escaping.... How can I care for myself? https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Viph6_8jSaI I am now listening to this video. Maybe this is why I've been taking nonstop (middle of …
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Chemical and environmental aspects of addiction
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=0jlH7Q73XJY&t=601s What makes some people an addict and some not? Physical- everyone's brain has slight variations (DNA) - differences in dopamine production, differences in processing, differences receptors. A brain that is more susceptible to emotions or interference. Environment- how were you raised? what is your experiences up to this point? Abuse, neglect, trauma... your circumstances …
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