https://youtu.be/8Lw0w7JZbVA I stumbled upon this totally not expecting to get the best description of codependency I have ever heard... 8:42 - "something along the lines of when she was growing up she wasn't treated well... She feels comfortable calling it trauma" "You learn I don't matter... I need to suppress all of my pain..." "Some …
Inspiration
https://youtu.be/hT0K2-S2F7g Assumptions about addicts.... I always need these reminders in my life... Have I ever tried Meth or pills? No... but addicts all do odd, bad, shady stuff. "I hated that my life centered around that... " "Addiction is the symptom of a much bigger problem..." "There's nothing wrong with me.. don't tell me something …
Sitting at a bar … SOBER!
Three times within the last nine days I have been at a bar and didn't drink. I would in general currently be avoiding bars both to help my sobriety and because of COVID, but we just bought a permanent campsite that has a restaurant and tiki bar on site. We were up there the last …
Traits – Covering Trauma … or … Inheriting Addiction
My sister unloaded on my with her thoughts on our mom. Our mom is hard to take and I know this, but this conversation still took me back. Here are a few things she mentioned she thought my mom suffered from... How did this affect us? What traits do I have of these? Narcissistic Personality …
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Constant Question – Getting older… or… Getting sober?
Today as I sit in "my home office" (working from home from March 17th- September 1st.. Thanks COVID...) I can smell the lilies of the valley wafting in with the breeze through the open window. The dogs are snuggled up on the bed sniffing, snoozing, and enjoying. I'm more alert to these wonderful smells. We've …
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Day 13
Made it through a second weekend! This weekend consisted of a Friday night of driving (about 8 hours), a full day of family time Saturday, and a lazier day on Sunday. Friday I knew right away I would need to get extra income so I started driving right away after work and did that from …
I've turned 30. 