Trying again

I was sober from December 15th 2019 -> Approx July 25th 2020. 7 months and a week. I thought I could have some fun on our July vacation, relax unwind. But then I couldn't seem to stop again. Shoot and now it's 3 months later. I thought to myself that we were fighting as much. …

The Rollercoaster

I've been ANGRY this week.... Is this me coming back off alcohol? Because I have time under my belt I feel powerful and hopeful to get back on track. But my mental health doesn't feel so good right now. I will hold on dear to that power.

Perspective

Hello! I had off for a week starting July 25th. I'm not sure what days where what, but I did allow myself to drink as it was my birthday and anniversary weekend and VACATION! I wanted to relax and have fun. I super, super overindulged once - I think on Sunday. Monday was a wasted …

Inspiration

https://youtu.be/hT0K2-S2F7g Assumptions about addicts.... I always need these reminders in my life... Have I ever tried Meth or pills? No... but addicts all do odd, bad, shady stuff. "I hated that my life centered around that... " "Addiction is the symptom of a much bigger problem..." "There's nothing wrong with me.. don't tell me something …

This week

I got about 6 hours of sleep last night. Went I woke up I had some of what I always expected was hangover - weird taste in my mouth (lol this is funny to type... yes we all wake up with bad breathe, but this is different.. almost a mix between a taste and numbness.. …