My app has alerted me today, based on my 20 drinks/week that I inputed, that I have passed on 500 drinks! The more I think about it the more I know 20 drinks/week is wrong... I feel like it could be over 35 drinks/week instead... A couple swings out of the bottle when I got …
Traits – Covering Trauma … or … Inheriting Addiction
My sister unloaded on my with her thoughts on our mom. Our mom is hard to take and I know this, but this conversation still took me back. Here are a few things she mentioned she thought my mom suffered from... How did this affect us? What traits do I have of these? Narcissistic Personality …
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Constant Question – Getting older… or… Getting sober?
Today as I sit in "my home office" (working from home from March 17th- September 1st.. Thanks COVID...) I can smell the lilies of the valley wafting in with the breeze through the open window. The dogs are snuggled up on the bed sniffing, snoozing, and enjoying. I'm more alert to these wonderful smells. We've …
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Being educated… and trying to stay sober
Jeffrey Epstein: Filthy Rich (Netflix) Surviving R Kelly (Netflix) George Floyd (National News out of Minnesota) Ahmaud Arbery (National News out of Georgia) COVID-19 - most summer events, sports, activities.. cancelled... Staying sober while trying to navigate devastating feelings is hard. I want to stay away from this stuff, but I do not want to …
Guilt – Relapse Dreams & A Day to Myself
Relapse dreams will give you enough guilt to not want to drink for a couple of days. I don't exactly remember the start of the dream. But somewhere within I was offered a drink, I hem-hawed, but accepted and drank.... I was so sad in my dream that I had that first drink... then thought, …
“My Friends”
I don't feel very inspirational... especially because I'm new at this and still struggling... so I will continue to share the friends I'm finding on the internet that inspire me to keep going every day. Unpickled - my original inspiration 🙂 I read through her first two years and then sought out others sources as …
Aware
I'm painfully aware there are 2 full vodka bottles, 2.5 whiskey bottles, a half-a bottle of wine, 2 beers & 2 wine coolers in this house. My friend left the wine coolers here 12/31 (even after I told her I wasn't going to drink them and didn't particularly want them in the house)... "I'll come …
Here comes the cancellations
This week COVID has made our town/local area start cancelling events. No: Memorial Day Parade, Flag Day Parade, July, 4th Fireworks, and already a Fall Festival that was cancelled. This is a hit to the morale, the slipping away of the "end is near" of this social distancing/stay at home. My husband came home with …
Conspiracy & Sobriety
Here is an interesting video a friend shared with us: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=5wHzrYtV5lw Currently it is hard to know what to believe, who to trust... Is the government telling us the truth?, the media? ... Is it truly safer at home? I can tell you the orders are driving me bonkers. I am certainly more of a …
CINCO DE MAYO & Taco Tuesday
As I think through my time of drinking... I was rarely of "drink the day of" and more worry about what the day was going to be - to drink far to much the night before. I did not seem to have social anxiety in high school or college - but I did keep mainly …
I've turned 30. 