I've been ANGRY this week.... Is this me coming back off alcohol? Because I have time under my belt I feel powerful and hopeful to get back on track. But my mental health doesn't feel so good right now. I will hold on dear to that power.
Perspective
Hello! I had off for a week starting July 25th. I'm not sure what days where what, but I did allow myself to drink as it was my birthday and anniversary weekend and VACATION! I wanted to relax and have fun. I super, super overindulged once - I think on Sunday. Monday was a wasted …
Codependency
https://youtu.be/8Lw0w7JZbVA I stumbled upon this totally not expecting to get the best description of codependency I have ever heard... 8:42 - "something along the lines of when she was growing up she wasn't treated well... She feels comfortable calling it trauma" "You learn I don't matter... I need to suppress all of my pain..." "Some …
Inspiration
https://youtu.be/hT0K2-S2F7g Assumptions about addicts.... I always need these reminders in my life... Have I ever tried Meth or pills? No... but addicts all do odd, bad, shady stuff. "I hated that my life centered around that... " "Addiction is the symptom of a much bigger problem..." "There's nothing wrong with me.. don't tell me something …
This week
I got about 6 hours of sleep last night. Went I woke up I had some of what I always expected was hangover - weird taste in my mouth (lol this is funny to type... yes we all wake up with bad breathe, but this is different.. almost a mix between a taste and numbness.. …
Sitting at a bar … SOBER!
Three times within the last nine days I have been at a bar and didn't drink. I would in general currently be avoiding bars both to help my sobriety and because of COVID, but we just bought a permanent campsite that has a restaurant and tiki bar on site. We were up there the last …
One year ago today I was extremely hungover
I could probably say that for many days recently... Last year today we were camping with my husband's family. We had pulled up Friday midday... I had a drink while we were setting up. My friend joined me for a mid-afternoon chat. She lives about 90 min away and we were camping near her house. …
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I’ve lost my happiness… How do I find it again?
Dismal title..... Sorry. I'm still on the wagon! I lost my passion a long time ago.... Perhaps before the really heavy drinking. The old question of am I depressed? "Loss of interested in daily activities and/or things you love to do..." ... But now, for the longest time, I can't think of anything I love …
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Reasons why I drank…
"If he wasn't going to change and I wasn't going to leave .. then at least we could have peace, right? ... Survival skill... just to get through the day, just to get through some of the situation that happen... " https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=qDVX_PL5bJU&t=323s I'm certain that I'm codependent... I'm trying to find out what that means …
Six Months Sober
Dec 15th -> June 15th In December or for years before that, the thought of being sober sounded impossible. The act of trying to get sober was .. truly felt like it was impossible. And some how I sit here today... 6 months sober. That is crazy to me. If someone is reading this thinking …
I've turned 30. 