Jeffrey Epstein: Filthy Rich (Netflix) Surviving R Kelly (Netflix) George Floyd (National News out of Minnesota) Ahmaud Arbery (National News out of Georgia) COVID-19 - most summer events, sports, activities.. cancelled... Staying sober while trying to navigate devastating feelings is hard. I want to stay away from this stuff, but I do not want to …
Guilt – Relapse Dreams & A Day to Myself
Relapse dreams will give you enough guilt to not want to drink for a couple of days. I don't exactly remember the start of the dream. But somewhere within I was offered a drink, I hem-hawed, but accepted and drank.... I was so sad in my dream that I had that first drink... then thought, …
“My Friends”
I don't feel very inspirational... especially because I'm new at this and still struggling... so I will continue to share the friends I'm finding on the internet that inspire me to keep going every day. Unpickled - my original inspiration 🙂 I read through her first two years and then sought out others sources as …
Aware
I'm painfully aware there are 2 full vodka bottles, 2.5 whiskey bottles, a half-a bottle of wine, 2 beers & 2 wine coolers in this house. My friend left the wine coolers here 12/31 (even after I told her I wasn't going to drink them and didn't particularly want them in the house)... "I'll come …
Here comes the cancellations
This week COVID has made our town/local area start cancelling events. No: Memorial Day Parade, Flag Day Parade, July, 4th Fireworks, and already a Fall Festival that was cancelled. This is a hit to the morale, the slipping away of the "end is near" of this social distancing/stay at home. My husband came home with …
Conspiracy & Sobriety
Here is an interesting video a friend shared with us: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=5wHzrYtV5lw Currently it is hard to know what to believe, who to trust... Is the government telling us the truth?, the media? ... Is it truly safer at home? I can tell you the orders are driving me bonkers. I am certainly more of a …
CINCO DE MAYO & Taco Tuesday
As I think through my time of drinking... I was rarely of "drink the day of" and more worry about what the day was going to be - to drink far to much the night before. I did not seem to have social anxiety in high school or college - but I did keep mainly …
Sober COVID Weekend # 7
Safer at Home weeked in # 7 in the books. Two not so awesome weekends in a row 😦 but I survived and more importantly I stayed sober. As I bickered with my husband on Saturday I could only remind myself this situation would only be more escalated if I were drunk. As I chatted …
Lifetime Regained
My Sober App says I have now gained 5 more days to my lifetime by quitting drinking. The App says within 1-3 months (I have hit this time-frame) your grey matter and neurons are on the mend and your mental clarity should be better! Some days I would totally agree with this! My first month …
COVID-19 and Sobriety
I was very nervous to be at home all the time... With the alcohol... With my huband... With my feelings. So far it's been okay... actually so far I have had <no> cravings which is weird and puts me on red alert... Perhaps it's fair to say I hear the bratty kid in my head …
I've turned 30. 