Safer at Home weeked in # 7 in the books. Two not so awesome weekends in a row 😦 but I survived and more importantly I stayed sober. As I bickered with my husband on Saturday I could only remind myself this situation would only be more escalated if I were drunk. As I chatted …
Lifetime Regained
My Sober App says I have now gained 5 more days to my lifetime by quitting drinking. The App says within 1-3 months (I have hit this time-frame) your grey matter and neurons are on the mend and your mental clarity should be better! Some days I would totally agree with this! My first month …
Savings
When I uploaded an app to track my spending it asked me some simple questions: *Quitting Day: 12/15/2019 *Money Spent Weekly: $50 *Drinks per week?: 20 As I enter day 129 of being sober my app tells me: *Money Saved So Far: $915 *Drinks Passed So Far: 366 Drinks Sometimes I wonder if 20 drinks/week …
COVID-19 and Sobriety
I was very nervous to be at home all the time... With the alcohol... With my huband... With my feelings. So far it's been okay... actually so far I have had <no> cravings which is weird and puts me on red alert... Perhaps it's fair to say I hear the bratty kid in my head …
Sharing your story is powerful
A year ago a Facebook friend announced she was an alcoholic and was starting her sobriety journey. I was in awe she was brave enough to share it so publicly. As I made cuts on Facebook to the bare minimum friends & family she continued to make the cut because I wanted to see her …
One day at a time, always
Sometimes one second at a time. When I first (tried and did) quit drinking I had to pass (or even sit outside of my local alcohol sellers) and tell myself no! NO! NOOOOOOOOOOO! Throughout 2018 and 2019 I would go and buy the little pre-packaged shots in hopes that I could regulate and stay in …
Next Steps…
How does drinking (and not drinking) affect my emotions? All I've been hearing - and doing - using alcohol to mask emotions - good, bad, and everything! I heard a man speak that said he had a physical age of 24 and an emotional age of 16. This hits home. What's my emotional age? I'm …
Curiosity killed the cat
I have often wondered if I was ever close to death. I can across this website (that I cannot validate how accurate it is): http://getdrunknotfat.com/drinking-calculator/ Here is the example I ran to get to that toxic level: I'm not sure if I ever got there, I feel like I would be asleep before I could... …
How did I get here?? 115 Days!
As you read yesterday, I hit a rock bottom. A rock bottom that I didn't expect to be my rock bottom.... But nothing else worked!? I wasn't deterred by embarrassment, risky decisions, sickness.... None of it. I was scared by my husband's actions that night. I was scared of how many nights I didn't remember …
220 Days Since You have Heard From Me…
My last post was 220 days ago... August 30th. What have I done in 220 days? Struggled for a bit at the end of the summer. Struggled for a bit in Fall. Been sober for 114 days. Was told, again, "I want a divorce." Was told, "I'm leaving in the summer." ... Was also told …
I've turned 30. 